OK, let’s talk about being at home.
Now some of you are stay at home moms so you are home every day with the kids (you deserve all the wine…sooo much wine). Some of you are like me, because of Covid you’re able to work remotely some days. Some of you are working remotely completely. Also, some of you are like me and are home on the weekends alone with your kids because your husband works or you are single. So basically no matter which category you fall into it feels like the days bleed into weeks, bleed into weekends and before you know it your loosing your mind one day at a time…in other words hot mess express.
Its funny because there were times that I used to sit at my desk and dream about being a mom that worked from home. The thought of it felt so glamorous. Best of both worlds. Now that I am a mom that gets to work from home, I dream about going to the office. So what does this mean about me? Well it means like most of you I am never satisfied…rant on how moms are set up to fail for another day.
Because today, as promised I am going to talk about one way I have helped make this roller coaster of my life a little bit easier. And just to be clear, when I say easier I mean easier on my soul. My psyche. My confidence. Life is still hard in general.
So…. it is a day that I know I’m going to be home with my son. I have some work to do. But luckily I got a lot of it done yesterday knowing I was going to be home today. What do I normally do on these days? I literally let my son screaming “Mommy” be my alarm clock. He screams my name until I grudgingly get out of bed. I wear my pajamas all day, with no bra and yesterdays underwear. I eat snacks for lunch because I am completely unmotivated and feel like I’m chasing my tail around. And then my husband will come home and ask me every womans nightmare phrase, “what did you do today?” …..WHAT?!??…..Even if he is just asking in a casual way, that phrase makes me want to rip his eye balls out!!! What did I do? I worked, I kept your son alive, I survived the day!!!!! Not to mention I know he secretly expects dinner on the table or the house to be clean or for me to be in a good mood because “”I got to stay home.” The reality?? He walked in the door I hadn’t even put deodorant on and I don’t want to kiss him because I can’t remember if I brushed my teeth today, or yesterday.
So let’s talk about how I’m changing that…..I am going to post a picture of my outfit today. Because I have realized that when I get up and get ready for work it’s not just the fact that I’m out of the house its the fact that I am dressed, I have makeup on my face, and feel like a human and that makes me feel good about myself. So I thought why not feel good about myself at home? Now, I am the queen of comfortable. I hate wearing tight things even when I have to work or go out. So I got a couple cute lounge outfits that actually match at Marshals and laid one out for my new fresh to death at home morning routine.
Ok Sara, get on with it….What did I do differently? My husband woke me up at 6o’clock this morning with coffee. I know not every mom has that luxury (a husband who will bring them coffee). So if you don’t have a husband that can make you coffee in the morning set your coffee pot the night before on a timer so that when you get up to your alarm at 6 AM your coffee is calling your name with that beautiful aroma. I got up. I had a cup of coffee. And I got in the shower. Now why do I get in the shower? I have absolutely nowhere to be. I just showered yesterday and I wouldn’t consider myself dirty. But I did that because that’s what I do when I go to work. So, I showered, I put on clean underwear and a decent bra. And then I got dressed in one of my cute lounge outfits. I quickly realized that the Covid- 20 (pounds) that I have gained made my ass look disgusting in this lounge outfit, so I got creative and I threw a fancy kimono type cover up thing over it to make myself feel presentable, hide my huge ass and make me feel fabulous. I put on a pair of earrings. I threw some clips and some hairspray in my hair. And most importantly I put some makeup on my face. You will see from blogs to come that I am not a make up queen by any means. I barely know how to put it on. So don’t think for a second that I did a full make up tutorial with a full face of make up. I put some BB cream on, some bronzer, some mascara and I filled in my eyebrows because I look cray cray without them.
It is 8 o’clock in the morning. I’m dressed. I’m ready for the day. And I feel like a rockstar. I also grabbed some chicken breast out of my fridge and threw it in the crockpot with some soy sauce and garlic. I put that shit on low and when my husband comes home he’s gonna think I slaved over a nice dinner when in reality the crockpot did all the work.
So who cares? I’m writing this post because I know what it’s like to feel defeated and crappy everyday. To feel like you aren’t good at anything and you are barely getting by as a mom, as a wife, as a human. You feel completely unorganized and you’re lucky if you put a bra and deodorant on. I genuinely think that taking care of yourself, giving yourself the ability to wake up in the morning and get dressed. Even if your kid is screaming in the background…is important. It’s become important for me. And I hope with you reading this post you realize it’s important for you too.
I read a great post that says taking care of yourself isn’t self care, its a human need. So let’s be fabulous ladies and join me on my crazy train.
A little follow up, I took a video about 30 minutes after I wrote this blog. My son who is potty trained, Peed all over himself on my floor while I was trying to do a zoom meeting. And I can say honestly, that I didn’t feel as stressed out. Because I started my day on a positive note taking care of myself. And if you watch the video don’t judge me for the fact that he says shit in the background and he’s only two. We are a work in progress.
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