I have a website!!!!! Actually to most of you its probably more like….”Wait… she has a website?????”
It has been a long time coming for me to become a social influencer and finally I have been recognized and paid for being fabulous!
Cough….cough….thats Bullshit. I can barely do my hair in the morning let alone become a famous influencer that is paid to do a blog. (GOALS)
The honest truth is I have been playing around with the idea of writing a book, or posting videos on youtube. But in reality I am not that cool. So I decided to start a blog and see how it goes.
Lets talk about the blog name: Suddenly Santilli. I would love to try to take credit for that name. But actually my little sister came up with Suddenly Santilli as the hashtag for my wedding. It was super cute then, and now I find it to be fitting for this blog. To me this blog is really about the feeling that I, and a lot of my friends got when we “suddenly” became a wife, a mother, an adult….???…..(I don’t really know if I’m an adult yet). But it all feels so sudden. It all feels new and uncharted and confusing. More than anything I feel way more like a train wreck now then I did when I was younger. And for some reason I always thought it be the opposite. I would get older, meet the love of my life, get married, have a baby, and everything would fall into place. I would be like those fancy women I saw on TV when I was drinking cheap vodka in college, dreaming of what it would be like to be a successful woman.
And to be honest I am a “successful woman”. I did marry the love of my life. I do have an awesome career. I have traveled the world. I have an awesome son and perfect step kids. I have a great house. But why do I feel like a failure everyday?
And then I realized. I’m not alone. Almost all the girlfriends I talk to feel the exact same way. Almost every funny mom meme I see on Facebook summarizes the same feeling. We worked our whole lives to get exactly what we have, and now that we have it we feel like a complete messy bun. Not even a good messy bun either, we feel like a messy bun that you tried to put up while driving with your kids screaming in the backseat when you only have one bobby pin. That’s the kind of messy bun I feel like.
So why do this? Well to be honest I feel like I have these conversations in my head all day. And there have been times I thought, what if I wrote it down? Would people read it? Or would writing it make me feel a little bit better? The jury is still out on that since this is my first post. But I also feel that while I have been riding on the struggle bus I have found some cool ways to make my life a little bit easier. Blog post to come on that. I genuinely just want to share my stories, my struggles, and my ideas. And I want this blog to be relatable. Because I AM relatable. I hate when I read a book, or look at somebody’s Instagram story. And they’re posting about a face cream that cost $300 a bottle. There’s nothing relatable about that to me. I haven’t shaved my legs in literally four months. And that’s because I used Nair on them and burnt my legs and my entire crotch area….now I probably need to do another story about that too. But why isn’t anybody relatable anymore? I’m talking middle or lower class , working or stay at home mom who doesn’t have thousands of dollars of to blow on clothes and shoes and crap. What about us “normal people”?
So what will this blog be about? Who knows. But here are a few of my ideas so stay tuned.
- Inexpensive Date night or trip ideas, restaurant reviews and how to get a bang for your buck.
- Home design for the budget concious
- Comfy, cash conscious “coture”
- Me ranting!
So if you read all this I appreciate you taking your time to do that. I have big ideas in my head about how this can become everything I want it to be. So I hope you join me on my crazy bus. I think it’s going to be fun!!
Suddenly Santilli 